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 Pixie's Blog 
Wednesday, December 15 2010

Blackberry Pie There is a difference between doing something out of love and doing some to be loved.  

When I've taken an action out of love, there are no strings attached.  It's a pure, altruistic act that feels good just in taking it.  There are no expectations of  return.  The latter is an act that I do for love and attention.  When it's not received well or received at all, I feel hurt and rejected.

Once upon a time, he told me his favorite pie was blackberry pie.  His birthday rolled around.  I invited a few close friends for dinner.  I made blackberry pie and a plate full of brownies for dessert.  He told me he didn't like cake. 

A long-time friend of his passed by the pie and smiled, "It's his favorite!" she whispered in my ear. 

"I know!"  I replied.

After dinner, dessert was self-serve.  Friends who tried the pie raved about it.  He never touched it.  Later I commented, "I thought blackberry pie was your favorite.  You didn't even try it."

"I said raspberry,"  he replied.

Something twisted in my chest.

At the next dinner, I made red raspberry pie for dessert.  Again, he didn't eat the pie.  I asked, "Didn't you say you liked raspberry pie?"

"Black raspberry," was the answer.

That thing in my chest took a deeper turn.

For the next holiday dinner, another family member made cherry pie.  He ate a piece and raved how it was the perfect combination of sweet and sour.  He even saved a piece for later. 

That thing in my chest burrowed out of sight.

I wish I could tell you that I rose above myself.  I wish I could tell you that I stopped baking pies for his approval, out of love for him and baked pies for the sheer love of baking but I didn't.  I just stopped baking pies.

That was years ago.  Now looking back I can see that I was baking pies as love offerings in the hopes of receiving love and attention in return.  And, I can see how sad it is that he couldn't receive the gift of my pies.

What do you do for love and attention?  Is there something burrowed in your heart?

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